12 May 2006

I ask myself: "what do you need somebody for?"

I've always thought I need somebody to rely on, to share my thoughts with, my joys and my worries, to give my time to, to enjoy what life brings, to acknowledge I exist for some reason other than breathing and eating.

I am starting to understand now that there is no need to need anybody. The moment you feel you need somebody means you've screwed up everything. Love is meant to be an emotion that sets you free.

Love takes you away from the daily routine, it fills you with hope in the good to come, it teaches you to share, to give, to receive. It gives you the tools to overcome pain and frustration. It gives you the tools to fly away. It gives you freedom.

If you allow yourself to see in love a necessity then you've lost love and created dependence. Dependence makes you do to ask for, give to receive and take for granted the other has to be yours. Dependence brings you suffering and misunderstandings. Dependence is not love; it's the consequence of loving in a bad way.

I've been through hell because I was not loved [...] Love did not led me through hell; dependence did. The pain of loving only grew it stronger; the pain of dependence killed [me].

I shouldn't think "I wish I found someone who loved me"... I should think "Never forget love and let be loved... and listen to your heart when it's time to leave".

Love is as free as the mind, powerful, rewarding. But if you try to kill it, it will hurt you.