Discovered in my library

Alone in the cab

Life works up and down to keep the balance. Famous ying – yang, positive in the darkness or negative in the light. Walking around in circles suddenly the world collapses around us, we slowly manage to find solutions until we get over it and we get used to that feeling enough to provoke a new earthquake. And back to the beginning. Everybody, no exceptions.

Some people don't realise on time that they won't live this day ever again and other decide to ignore it. We spend our lives choosing and dressing up these choices as "must-do" from our world. Being smart helps to solve material needs and wreck your emotional status; it would be so great to be able to believe the big lie that says that society does not allow us to lead the life we want. The truth is that some things demand being brave to maintain them and others being brave to be defeated. The intelligence erases the eye mask.

Four birthday celebrations. Bloody great to feel the warmth of those around me. Great to know that, at the end, I came back home alone in the cab.

Psychic

I had a dream a few days ago. I was somewhere doing something... can't remember what, it was such a normal dream... Suddenly I started chatting with a stranger I had in my messenger who told me a friend was at the hospital because he had had minor surgery and he thought I should know. It was so unexpected and so unrelated to the actual dream that I woke up.

6.34am. I should be sleeping and not thinking about... oh, whatever. I thought how stupid that was and I went back to sleep but I think I stayed half awake, half asleep because I spent the whole next hour wondering what hospital it would be and what surgery it must have been, deciding whether I should go or not, or maybe call, if it was appropriate to bring flowers or chocolates, finding out (by chatting to this stranger) what hospital it was, working out from my memories what was the most probable surgery he must have gone under and deciding I should definitely go and bring a special (and specific) kind of chocolates I know he would like (flowers would be definitely pointless). And at the same time thinking what a waste of time all this was since it was u-n-r-e-a-l.

7.25am. My alarm clock goes off and I finally wake up. Completely. When I managed to lift my back from the mattress, sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at my feet I though what a bloody waste of time and energy all that had been since I could have slept for almost an hour and not stress myself out over nothing.

When I came back from the shower I realised something. There I was again. It was not the first time it happened. Every single time I have dreamed unexpectedly with someone I don't normally keep in touch with for whatever reason, it has meant I was going to bump into that person or receive news directly or indirectly in a very short period of time. Well... I am always right and I might be a psychic... This time it took only 24 hours.