One of my best entertainments is dreaming awake. You can choose what you want and what you don't want, you can rewind, cut and paste, change and replay forever. You can pretend to be different and nobody would ever spot it... it belongs to you. You can play to be who you really want to be with whom you really want to be and how you would really like it to be with the advantage of not hurting anyone.
I used to do it closing my eyes and keeping my body steady, focusing on my thoughts and forgetting whatever I had around me. Funny though how someone can develop almost anything with practise... Now I can sit in the bus or walk by the street dreaming I am somewhere else and still be alert, still be here, still be aware of what is going on... still answer questions. Still talk. Still work.
I have chosen to stop dreaming awake more than once. You recreate a situation so much in your mind that you end up either believing or aching because it doesn't come true. At that point you either choose to believe the lie hoping it will come true or stopping everything at once; as a reasonable human being, you stop. It's a matter of discipline, you choose to stop and you force your brain to stop. It hurts for a few days and then it will disappear.
Sometimes life looks back at you and makes you realise that fear doesn't get you anywhere... did you actually give up your dream or potential reality?
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